About me.

I am 24 years old. I moved far away from my crappy family to be with my wonderful husband(who is only human after all, and is not perfect even though he is wonderful.) I have two children. Today I am 36 weeks pregnant with my third. 

I am a selfish bitch who wishes for nothing more at this moment then to no longer be pregnant. I can't sleep, I can't get off the couch easily, I can't put on socks, I can't see my vag. I have been having contractions for two weeks.  I think I am farther along then the midwives think but I am not a midwife so I get no say. 

I have cried a lot in the past two weeks. I wish my body would make up its mind and stop contracting and waking me up until it was time to have the baby. I have been grumpy towards my other two children. I hope this doesn't scar them for life. I love them so much, I am just miserable right now.

The person who I thought was my best friend hasn't spoken to me in 4 months. She wouldn't answer emails or texts. Basically I was dumped by the only close friend I had made out here. I miss having friends. I hate feeling so alone all the time. 

I am so emo.